Logan Tyler Nelson, Suicide Survivor

Our guest this week, Logan Tyler Nelson had an internal dialogue that did not serve him. His questions around self worth pushed him beyond depression and into darkness. After attempting suicide he decided his life had purpose and now shares his story to help others.

Darkness comes. But darkness also goes. During the worst storm you have ever experienced, up above the clouds, there was a perfect blue sky and a brilliant yellow sun waiting for us. With time, the darkness will pass, if we let it.

A Broken Heart

I believe I have experienced a literal broken heart twice in my life. Today I want to share one of them.

The day my father died, it felt like there was somebody standing on my chest, directly over my heart. The pressure and the pain were non-stop. As the days rolled on so did the pain, twenty-four hours a day.

Growing up, I wanted to be around my dad as much as possible. I loved him dearly.

I was very bonded to my father but not in a good way. He had no interest in being a father to my four siblings or me. And that space created by his distance made me want to be connected to him even more.

His abuse ranged from physical to emotional to mental. It was very unpredictable and it felt like you were walking on eggshells everyday.

However, all the way up to his death, I made excuses for him and myself. I dismissed the abuse as not really being abuse, and told myself it was simply discipline and that I had it coming.

After months of the pain in my chest, and trips to the hospital for it, I came to believe the pain would never stop. I knew the pain in my chest wasn’t because there was anything wrong with my body. It was the pain of a broken heart.

Thinking the pain would never end and not wanting to live my life because of both the pain and the absence of my father, I contemplated taking my own life.

Our guest this week, Logan Tyler Nelson had an internal dialogue that did not serve him. His questions around self worth pushed him beyond depression and into darkness. After attempting suicide he decided his life had purpose and now shares his story to help others.

Darkness comes. But darkness also goes. During the worst storm you have ever experienced, up above the clouds, there was a perfect blue sky and a brilliant yellow sun waiting for us. With time, the darkness will pass, if we let it.